i've got a couple weeks of everything i've eaten written down, & i was hoping to post it all up; but honestly, it's so pointless.
i'll try & be good to post here every day. (or post a couple days at a time every few days.)
starting tomorrow! (which i'll post wednesday..)
staystrong, & happy victoria day!
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WARNING: THE FOLLOWING INCLUDES MAJOR FAILURE.

so, this was an awful day.
literally & food intake wise.

sound & lighting meeting led to
12:00pm pizza (2veg & 2pep); 940.

felt full & gross -
was about to purge in the school washroom (1:15pm) but someone walked in. fuck.

played 3 shifts in a frisbee game.

3:10pm raisins; 70.
raspberry bars; 100.

25 leg lifts each side.

5:00pm spinach & cheese ravioli with more cheese; 375.
5:30pm horrible crappy cheap macaroni & cheese; 180.

decided i could binge as long as i purged, because this day was already fucked.
6:30pm coconut cream pie; 180.
one & a half english muffins(240) topped with 7.5 tbsp peanut butter (675)& splenda (which i made & ate in less than 2 minutes); 915
purged as best i could. i'm a little afraid i didn't get it all.
7:00pm oatmeal; 130.


total 2710.

what today would've been like without the binge 1485. which in the very least would've not made me gain, which i'm sure today will.

` edit,
so then there was almost a cup of orange juice(70) some yogurt(35) a couple granola bars(300?) and a hot chocolate(40).
none of it purged.
which brings me to 3155.

11:40am steamed carrots with poppy seed dressing; 70.

frisbee practice, then i
walked around a mall for 4 hours.

7:00pm starbucks chai frappachino; 350.
half a bag of smartfood (cheddar popcorn); 250.

10:00pm two pieces of coconut cream pie; 340.
purged all pie.
& fyi, i usually don't taste anything, but the pie, tastes the same in reverse ..

12:00am oatmeal; 115.

total 1125.

there's been a few hectic days of binging, & a few of purging, but i'm back on track.

today;

11:00am spinach ravioli(230) with ricotta(270); 300.
12:00pm one cup carrots; 35.
12:45pm cheerios(110), banana(30) & soy milk(30); 170.

3:20pm chicken soup (broth); 20
orange pekoe tea & splenda; 0

5:30pm steamed carrots(40) with poppy seed dressing(35); 75.
spinach ravioli(100) with ricotta(55); 155
5:45pm purged, very little.

binged:
6:30pm crackers(200) with dill hummas(120); 320.
7:00pm purged, quite a bit.

total: 1075.
holy fuck.

what my day would've been like without the binge: 755.

11:20am (always unsweetened) applesause; 90.

4:00pm carrots, cucumber & dip; 100.
rice chips; 90.

6:00pm chocolate chip muffin; 350.

10:00pm oatmeal & applesause; 125.
10:30pm hot chocolate; 45.

today comes to 800, EXACTLY.

scarfed down a box of raisins in the booth at 11:25am; 35.
another on the subway at 5:30pm; 35.
poppy seed salad at 6:30pm; 50
made a egg white ricotta omlet, on toast with chives & cream cheese for dinner at 8:40pm ; 210.
washed it down with orange juice, water & ginger ale; 70.
which is all 400.
pretty ok right?

but then i binged.
crackers & cheese; 375.
yogurt; 35.
banana & peanut butter; 170.
adding 580.
BLAH.

so 980. which sucks, but isn't quite as large as i thought it was going to be.

sleeptight, page.

today?
CAKE.
but not really just any cake; the cake my daddy/step-mother sent me from utah, where things bake funny at a different altitude & must be made more caloric/thicker. + it was a double chocolate fudge cake recipe, but they added extra chocolategoodstuff just for page-ie.
the UPS man handed it to me & ran away.

so about 700 calories of that.
a muffin of death tim hortins chocolate chip muffin, 460.
purged 100 calories if i was lucky.
& some more cake. 400ish?
GOD I WISH I KNEW WHAT WAS IN IT.
peach tea
& i'll end up having some soup later, 20.
` 1480 TOO MUCH.

i'm gonna go knit my frustration away.
goodnight, & staystrong;
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-edit-
because i am such a fat-pig who can't keep it's gob shut, i ate;
poppy seed salad, 30.
pizza, 400.
TOTAL; 1910. fuck.
goodnight.