so uhm - first things first.
i didn't sleep.
i was writing this politics paper .. & time kinda got away from me?
my alarm clock went off & i was still up on the computer writing .. so i've been up for ..
38.5 hours - WIDE AWAKE.
i'm still working on that politics paper, so when i get to around 41 consecutive hours awake i'll hopefully be in bed.
got to say, when i stay wide awake for over day, you get this rush, like fasting. though some people tend to have the negative side effect of binging, i think i'm stronger like this. mind you, i so cannot concentrate on anything for more than thirty seconds.
ANYWAYS - ON TO THE FOOD.

7:50am hot chocolate hazelnut coffee; 25.

11:50am broccoli & carrots; 35.

3:45pm hot chocolate; 40.
blueberries; 17.

5:50pm spinach salad; 50.
mashed potatoes & mixed veggies; 250.

7:00pm rice cakes & applesauce; 260.
hot chocolate hazelnut coffee; 25.

8:30pm light cranberry-pomegranate juice; 7.

snacks; 120.

total: 829.
& FULL.

10:00am white toast with margarine & jam; 215.

11:00am apple; 50.
11:20am honeycomb cereal with milk;160.

12:30pm peas with light ricotta & garlic; 130.

3:30-9:00pm hot chocolate & chai tea; 220.

7:30pm veggie burger with light mayonnaise & ketchup; 290.
spinach salad; 50.
8:00pm garlic bread; 120.

11:00pm pb&j wrap w/honey; 250.
so fucking hard not to purge that.
i wish so much that i never ate it.

total: 1435.
uhg.
as gross as that is, it's a quarter of what i was eating before,
even if i wasn't keeping any of that in,
my stomach is still way stretched out.
i feel sick all the time.